Watched the Epic Finals part one of the Epic film today . This show has been 'with' me for almost 6years now . How time flies ~ I must say this film was pretty well film . The landscapes were awesomely pretty & their acting has improved . They can now express emotions that are so much deeper . Im amazed and in a way envious of it . Dad was half asleep throughout the whole movie :X He didnt understand much of it . After the movie it was supper at Blooie . I miss the Top shell & all over there . Yeah the food is kinda expensive , but i like it there . No more Vodka for me .. Actually i shan't drink alcohol anymore . Hopefully this will last till im legal . This brings me to another topic . Tattoos . Hmm i always wanted one but i think i will get slaughtered if i ever do it . So for now its a no ... i guess even in future it'll still be a no & as for piercings , i guess my last body piercing will be the naval piercing and thats it .
Moving on to someone important now . Eli Teo . my baby bro who came into this earth when im already 15 years old . Actually his more of a half brother but still whatever . I think one of the proudest achievement in my life is the fact that i named him . Im even amazed how i thought of sucha name haha . Eli is a reallllly cooooool nameeeeee . Firstly , Elis are usually dammm handsome . So yeah in future i do hope his some hot hunk that girls will fall head over heels for . Secondly Elis are dammm awesomely cool & talented . Recently i found out bout this guy online . His name is Eli Tee .. wow his cool yeahh . His MBC audition vid was awesomeee . So yeah back to my point Eli is just such an awesome namee . Enough of me blabbering about the name , its now for me to write some personal stuff bout the whole thing .
His now in Vietnam .. with his mum & grandma . He is a mix of both Chinese & vietnam blood. Stereotypically saying , he should be dammmmm handsome . But i dont know . His too young for that haha . But the point is , being good looking is not everything . I heard he has small eyes . Which is weird as everyone in the family has pretty big eyes . Maybe its from his mum i dont know . Im not afraid of babies . Its just that im afraid i'll drop them . Remembering when he was just a few weeks old , me cradling him in my arms was a huge step forward . I remember not really wanting a Step sibling but one came so i embraced it . Im still afraid of my responsibilities as an eldest among us three . When im 30 his only 15 . My dad is not exactly the best parent so i've been thinking how i should teach him so that he can grow up rite . I dont want him to be exposed to gambling and all that nonsense that my dad's side has . Neither do i want him to have a childhood thats similar to mine . Im not saying that my childhood was bad or anything .. it was just not good enough i guess . I do love him .. or maybe i try to love him . haha enough of my nonsense this is a longggg posttt .
So im going off :P Hopefully i can be awake at 6.45am tmr for a jog & hopefully i wont fall aslp in service tmr .. hehe byebyes .
Mental war .
Friday, November 26, 2010
Puppets of Reality .
Listening to some random song from a random blog . Drinking frozen Starbucks that my mum bought yesterday . Im touched my mum bought me Starbucks ..Its amazing . Lately i've been telling her that i love coffee and hopes to be able to open a cafe oneday . I remember how she use to nag at me saying i spend too much money in a cafe but now its amazing she is not that against it anymore .
I dont have much time left and for some weird reason im blogging . I've been thinking alot lately .I know how average i am and it bothers me a little sometimes . I am weird i know . I'm different . Is that a bad thing ? I guess we're all puppets of reality . Controlled restrain and afraid . Im making no sense here and im just writing cause i feel like it . I know my dreams , I have my own ambitions . But im just afraid to speak out . I dont think im that great at all . I think i suck .. I have my facade ...I have my fears . I know i have to get over them someday .
Practice practice practice i'll get there .
I pray for peace in the world . I pray for greater faith .
I heard this song ... and i wanted to crying . i remembered how i use to love this song ... and ironically , i can only sing the chorus . But all in all , this song is amazing . I guess we're all tired of being reflections . We're all tired of holding onto a facade . But that is just how reality works i guess ..
Today , i got discouraged once again by someone close to me . Just so tired of all this nonsense .. I do believe in myself bt still .. Maybe i do care too much bout what others think about me .. I know its stupid bt i cant help it ... Helpppp .... i cant give it up ..
Today i talked to her , im writing it all here because i choose to believe that no one from my previous church will read this . Its almost a year since i left .. and im kinda happy that i left . Upon leaving , i realised many things . I kinda gain what i lose . I dunwanna go back to that state i was in ... looking back , i was pathetic . But there is some stuff tt i wanna say .. ..PD i miss you .. Im serious i do . Stay happy alrights ? Its been forever since i last saw you .. i heard you lost weight...Thats great .. though ur old self was great too :D
To Claudia .. I miss ya alottttt tooooooo ! Sms me anytime alrights .. To Fion .. I miss ya .. Like Duh .. meet me soon alrights ^^
thats it . Im emotional .. 2.29am .. Maybe i should club penguin for awhile .. since i wanna be a ninja ..
Nighhts . Have a great Saturday :D
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
I believe .
Be happy despite all the shit life throws at you . Be optimistic , all those shit are learning experiences . It may hurt , you may cry , bt all in all you'll learn something from it . I learnt this today . I shall try to master it all . :P
10cm .. A korean indie band . They make awesome music ... ! 10cm-Its so nice
This man needs no introduction . Michael Jackson -hold my hand Feat Akon . Another amazingggg track from an amazinggg man . He will be forever missed . (:
Im off to watch a shimmycocopuffsss vid .. Hopefully tmr will be a productive day . Gotta have to go visit my grandma tmr ~ Byes .. Hopefully i sleep soon :X
Monday, November 15, 2010
A little of everthing .
Jesus take the wheel , take it from my hands , cuz i cant do this on my own . Im gonna let it go ..
I gotta learn how to get over myself . Thats hard . My insecurities , my fears , my everything .
Breathe & smile . RANDOMMM: >>>
guess who is older ?
&& I love Music , books & coffee . Proclaiming my love for those stuff ~!
Nights ~
Sunday, November 14, 2010
是谁度不过?
Im trying to believe that this world is fair . Im trying to believe in tons of stuff .. even if it aint true . 2 more months to the end of 2010 . How am i going to end it ?
Gonna sleep real late tonight :XXX Im still watching a movie ...
Nights ..
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Choices .
I choose to believe that life would get better . I choose to believe smiling would be easier den crying . I choose to believe that the world is a nice place . I choose to believe that falling down wouldnt hurt so much .
(:
Friday, November 12, 2010
If you dont have a passion worth dying for , you have nth worth living for .
Random writing . Thank you for those that read it .
I was wondering , if you had a second chance in life , how would u want to live it ? Would you live it the way you're living now or change it . If i had a chance , i would change it . Change my name , change my lifestyle , change the way i live . I would runaway and forget everything ...
alrights im off .. Nights . <3
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Thank You Joey !
Yepps after i closed my previous blog , i created a new blog . I have no idea how often i'll blog ... To be honest , i dont even noe why i created a new blog . I guess im just being random . Today was a pretty tiring day . O level chinese was ... idk ); Its all up to God now . Band was tiring too . Its Band Night nxt mon .. Time flies . November is ending soon . i havnt done anything productive this month & im feeling disappointed with myself .. I have tons of things that i needa practice bt i think i only got 1/4 of it done . Gonna slp late tonight ..
THANK YOU JOEY .. Without you this blog would be in a terrible state ... Thk You :D