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Friday, February 18, 2011
The to be honest with myself post .
This dead place may not be a bad thing .
Its super dead i guess no one actually comes to read it but thinking bout it , it may not be a bad thing . This gives me the chance to be honest with myself .
Its 12.15am im suppose to be asleep but apparently im not .
Its crazy its only 2 months into 2011 and i can feel the O level pressure hitting hard upon me .
Im trying my best to study as hard as i can ... sometimes i wonder why im doing so den i realised .. i wouldnt want to let my mum down .
My mum has spend so much money on education that it makes me want to do it well . I guess this is the only thing she'll feel happy and proud . I want her to be happy . To be frank , i wouldnt mind studying for the subjects that i enjoy .. but maths and science seems to suck every single brain cells out of my brain .
I cant seem to break away from what i enjoy .
I loveee singing and i wont deny it . I want to have some achievement with it .
But sometimes , i feel like im nowhere . I know i aint that great but i will try ..
I may lose my way but i'll keep praying and i know that God will lead the way .
I may not see it now but i will see it in future . I have to hang on the faith for now ...
There is so many things that i can improve on .. and sometimes the thing that u enjoy the most makes u feel sooo demoralized . Music , i feel like im never good enough .
But i've made a choice .. I've joined it .
Lord lead the way and help me through this alrights (:
No matter what happens in the end , i want to give thanks to you .!
I love u mummy & i always will .
I know you will be proud of me someday i know u will .
Im crying now .. Opps :X
whatever ...
byeeeee .
Its super dead i guess no one actually comes to read it but thinking bout it , it may not be a bad thing . This gives me the chance to be honest with myself .
Its 12.15am im suppose to be asleep but apparently im not .
Its crazy its only 2 months into 2011 and i can feel the O level pressure hitting hard upon me .
Im trying my best to study as hard as i can ... sometimes i wonder why im doing so den i realised .. i wouldnt want to let my mum down .
My mum has spend so much money on education that it makes me want to do it well . I guess this is the only thing she'll feel happy and proud . I want her to be happy . To be frank , i wouldnt mind studying for the subjects that i enjoy .. but maths and science seems to suck every single brain cells out of my brain .
I cant seem to break away from what i enjoy .
I loveee singing and i wont deny it . I want to have some achievement with it .
But sometimes , i feel like im nowhere . I know i aint that great but i will try ..
I may lose my way but i'll keep praying and i know that God will lead the way .
I may not see it now but i will see it in future . I have to hang on the faith for now ...
There is so many things that i can improve on .. and sometimes the thing that u enjoy the most makes u feel sooo demoralized . Music , i feel like im never good enough .
But i've made a choice .. I've joined it .
Lord lead the way and help me through this alrights (:
No matter what happens in the end , i want to give thanks to you .!
I love u mummy & i always will .
I know you will be proud of me someday i know u will .
Im crying now .. Opps :X
whatever ...
byeeeee .